Bleeding
Gave her a father who’d eventually become a runaway
And a mother with the heart of gold and the yearning for the wilderness; naive yet intelligent
She ran and you softened her heart to forgive
Heart open and yearning for the mother daughter relationship that she always wanted
This would be the moment!
She began to chase after her mother, taking the blanket of defense off attempting to replace it with the courage to try
Only for her mother to flee
Terrified of what the future holds if balances remain unchecked
Searching her mind to remember the essence of her bearer
Realizing much of what she’s experienced has always been a part of her story
Questioning why
And defaulting to the “there’s a reason for everything” mindset
Her subconscious echoes in the background
“I already feel so alone”
“You made me do this alone”
“You’re keeping alone”
….”I don’t understand this”
Running toward the wilderness as a means to escape
Recognizing the curse of generational coping choices
Tensions high and numbness preferred
She questions, “what is to come ?”
“Will the desires of my heart be met?”
“Will it all be in vain?”
She’s practiced obedience to the Most High
Attached to nothing but desire
Searching for Jesus in the travels her life have led to thus far
Questioning, “why?”
“Why do you give us relationships and then take them away?”
“Why did you let me get close to someone who would die?”
“What is the purpose of this pain?”
“Am I simply a pawn in a disposable world?”
“God …”
“What the f** is goin on ? “
“Why is this happening ? “
“Why are you making me do this alone ?”
Why did you make her an addict?”
“Why did you did let my father leave?”
“Why did you take Lee?”
“Why are you doing this to me?”
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